All I ever wanted you to know

Should I leave you and should I go

when all what´s left are scars that never fade,

the pain never leaves, the hurt neither so

there is too many mistakes we´ve made

I often wonder is this it – the end to it all

it was such a hard fight to get under your skin,

now all I´ve got is empty mind and soul,

through many times of loneliness I´ve been

I´ve lived thousand lives while loving you

the amount of fear I´ve carried in my head

imagining to lose you, not ever having you

was the most difficult of all – constant thread

I love you very much, my dearest boy

that´s all I ever wanted you to know and yet,

I can´t just simply let you quite destroy

all our love and things we´ve left unsaid

As little particle I´ll be present in your soul,

forever unnoticed by you like a quiet thief,

you´ll never understand why I loved you so

try not to grasp it – just believe...

(composed by myself, 6/10/11)